The Seep by Chana Porter
Queer Rep Summary: Lesbian/Sapphic Main Character(s), Genderqueer/Nonbinary Secondary Character(s), Trans Main Character(s).
THE SEEP is about pain, loss, grief, and the necessity of leaving space for sadness. The MC is trying to process her personal grief in a world which continually blunts the edges of pain and often totally erases sadness via the aliens which infect them. She fights to keep the messy parts of herself and doesn't understand why almost everyone else is content to lose that roughness. Her journey has a lot of messy stages which I don't want to spoil because part of the point of the story is that living through the moments without knowing how it'll end or if everything will be okay is important, and everyone needs the space to decide what they want, the freedom to make bad choices and learn from them.
Most of this book is aftercare and processing loss, and after reading it I feel sad but okay. It's a good kind of sad, and I really like the emotional arc of the book.
CW for racism, alcoholism, depression, mental illness, suicide (not depicted), major character death death.